According to the list in my post All About Me in 30 Days introduction I am to share something I am OCD about. I could make quite the list about this.
The first thing I am OCD about is my doors being locked at night. I will check them before going upstairs even if Tobei tells me they are locked. Then after I am done brushing my teeth and heading to my room I will stop at the top of the stairs to make sure the door is locked. Some may say I am weird but it helps me sleep at night. When Tobei and I first moved in together we got broken in to when we were sleeping. I have a sneaky suspicion of the who and the why but we were never able to prove it. That morning we bought extra locks for our doors and windows. Since then we have moved but I am still crazy OCD about checking. Same thing if we have a nice day and open the windows I will spend the next week checking the windows every night.
The 2nd would be my house being clean. I am actually not OCD about it. It doesn’t HAVE to be clean. But if my kitchen is a mess and the living room is also a mess then boy am I ever in a mood. I didn’t realize for a long time that the mess of these 2 rooms was causing my bad mood. Now that I do know at least I know how to fix the moods. So does Tobei. If he sees me getting really moody/antsy he will go clean the kitchen and have Little Man pick up some of his toys. Totally weird I know.
The true OCD thing though is me and the weather in the summer time. As mentioned a few times this summer I am TERRIFIED of thunderstorms. If there is a storm anywhere within 6 hours of us I am watching it. How do I know if one is within 6 hours of me? Because as soon as I get up in the morning, right before I go to bed and every hour or so during the day I am checking the weather. It gets even worse once the storm is here. When the storm is here or nearby I will have on the weather channel and be checking the weather on my phone the entire time. I will also run back and forth between the back and front windows to look at what is going on. If we are actually under a warning I will have the flashlight beside me and I will have on my shoes. It is crazy. It isn’t actually OCD, it is anxiety. However I put it here because if I am stopped from doing any of the above I will flip out on whoever is stopping me. Tobei has fallen victim to me yelling that I hate him and that he hates me because he is trying to keep me from doing all of the above. I tried to see a therapist about it this summer but I was not impressed with her or confident in her so I stopped going.