So I went home as planned to see my mom this week-end. Sunday morning at 5am my dad and step-mom got the call to go to the hospital as it was Grandpa’s time. By the time they got there he had already passed. He went peacefully in his sleep. My step-mom called me on my cell at 6. There was no way I could stay, I had to get back home, I wanted to get back home. I needed to be with my dad.
I woke Tobei and called Little man’s grandparents on his fathers side. I woke them up. They were so amazing. Without getting into it too much I had a nasty split with Little Man’s father so to have his family be there when I needed them was amazing. Little Man’s “pampa” woke up right away and came to the hotel to get him. They are keeping him for the week so I can do what I need to do and grieve with my family. It is no place for a 2 year old. Also Little Man always feels when I am stressed and feeds off it. He is much better going on a holiday to his nanny and pampa’s for a week then being home with the rest of us crying. They are driving him home to me on Saturday. We left as soon as Little Man was gone to drive back home.
We got home and went straight to my dads house. After some major crying and hugs I got on the phone with the funeral homes. We found a very helpful one that is not overly priced right around the corner from my dad. This is a good thing since I do not think he will be very capable of driving that day. Tomorrow morning we are all going to meet with the funeral director and get everything in place.
Sorry my posts have been a downer lately. This is a very difficult time for my family. I don’t even know how I am managing to cope. I can’t even put it in words. Thank you again for all the comments, thoughts and prayers. I appreciate everyone of them. I am trying to respond to every single one. If not in the comment box then by visiting your blog or sending an e-mail where possible. If I do not respond to you please do not take it personally. I appreciate everyone. I am just doing my best to try to get by day by day and relax when I can.