First off I would like to thank everyone for the words of support, the thoughts and the prayers through this difficult time.
Grandpa is closer to joining Grandma as he has wanted for the past 20 years. Last night at 11 the family was called in as he was not doing well and they thought it was the end. He became stable at 5 in the morning and they sent us home. Today I was called back at 3pm. My dad and step-mom were already there as well as my Aunt and 2 other relatives. They moved Grandpa’s roommate to another room so that we could have the room to ourselves for tonight. They have taken out Grandpa’s IV and are now just doing everything we can to make him comfortable. We had someone come in and say a prayer for Grandpa and then the out of town family left. The nurses have also ordered a cot to put in the room so that we can have someone stay with Grandpa over night.
My fiance is on the way to get pick up the baby sitter right now so that we can go for a few hours to be with Grandpa. Tomorrow we leave to go be with my mom and sister for the week-end as this has been planned since they day after we found out about her cancer. Though I would love to be here with my Grandpa to the end, I also need to be there for my mom. I am very worried we will lose him while I am gone but at the same time we could not. He has been hanging on all week.
Maybe it is not the best choice that I go home for the week-end. Maybe some people will not agree with my decision. But I need to do what I need to do. I have spent every day this week at the hospital with my Grandpa. My mom needs me too. I am doing the best that I can with the hand I have at the moment.