I would really like to know because I can’t take much more.
In an earlier entry I mentioned my mom has cancer. We are supposed to go home this week-end to see her. My sister is also going to be going home this week-end so we can all be together. Much more has gone on in my life and is currently on going that I rather not blog about as it is quite personal. So needless to say my mom having cancer was the icing on the cake. Or so I thought.
My dad and step-mom stopped by today. Before my dad had the car in park my step-mom jumped out. I knew right away something was wrong. They walked up to me and both started crying and told me to sit down. My grandfather is not going to be with us much longer. There is a hole in his bowels. The only way to fix it is through surgery. My grand-father is too old and fragile and would not make it through surgery. Right from surgery he would have to be put on life support. My grand-father has a DNR which means we are to not have him on life support and we are not to try to save him should something happen. So there is nothing we can do for him.
I went to see him in the hospital today and sat with him for 4 hours. They have him on morphine to ease the pain. All we can do we were told is be there for him, keep him from suffering and let him die with dignity. My grand-father is one of the most important men in my life. I can’t believe his time is coming.
Tobei came home from work today as soon as I found out and stayed with little man while I went to the hospital. I am going to go back to the hospital when Tobei gets off work tomorrow. At this point in time I do not know if I will be going home this week-end. Going to play it by ear on how my grand-father does.
Thank you to those who are following and coming by daily. I may not be posting daily while I deal with everything going on. Please don’t leave me. I will be back.